Four Letter Word

Today is Thursday. I am thinking about last week when I drove to the store in the evening to get the emergency ice cream and Oreos. Driving around I couldn't help but think of the happy/stressful word that follows me around like a concrete block tied to my leg with a bit of rope. That four letter word that can make butterflies in my stomach or pains in my heart. HOPE. I've mentioned it here before again and again. You know that. Here it is again and there it was in my head that day driving to the store and walking around wondering NOT what it is I really want, but how I will make it happen. The butterflies, the stab in the heart. HOPE. Stupid hope, wonderful hope. You are everywhere I go.