In My Heart

What's New?

Not much new to post. Today is the Sunday after Thanksgiving...which means that not only am I bloated, but I've gotten accustomed to eating copious amounts of food and doing nothing. Going back to work tomorrow will be hard!

I'm almost done with the quilt. Still working on the pillow too (this one had some technical difficulties). I've made a new AP contact that recently used THE AGENCY and brought home a BEAUTIFUL 2 1/2 year old boy 6 months ago. I'm not kidding this little boy is a charmer! Anyway, I am calling to interview her tomorrow night. She seems really nice and she has a positive attitude via email so I am looking forward to her insight.

Friday we hope to go to the bank to see if they will be willing to give us a loan (OH PLEASE BANK GOD LOOK DOWN ON US!!) and Saturday we go to Daytona to meet THE AGENCY. If all goes well this ball MAY officially get rolling on SUNDAY!! I have to pinch myself sometimes. I can't believe this is happening to us. I really feel that this is the path we belong on...that this is right for us.

Little Story:

A few days before my father died he called me over to his bed and whispered to me "don't worry, someday you will have a baby." At the time I thought he was crazy. The last thing I wanted then was a baby. But you know...he was right...and he never did say HOW I would have a baby. Just that I would have one. A little miracle is waiting for us in Russia. I'll leave you with this poem...

Not flesh of my flesh,

Nor bone of my bone,

But still miraculously

My own.

Never forget

For a single minute,

That you weren't born

Under my heart,

But in it.

~Author Unknown

I love you already- be safe- be happy- we will come for you soon. Mama.

I'll be Vlad to Meet You Chipmunk Baby!

Mr. N. and I have started calling our future child "Vlad." Poor kid can't get a break. I'm going to come up with something new. I wish I knew the Russian word for chipmunk. Anyway, I've been making a lot of new things for the little one. My mind is racing and so busy with things to do. So far I made a pillowcase, two paintings, and part of a quilt. We bought some vintage wooden blocks for the room too.

I bought a book on international adoption by Dawn Davenport and it has been excellent. It didn't get 5 stars on Amazon for nothing folks! Of course I've been reading online and chatting with the lists too. The two teleconferences with LMI went well and they answered a lot of my questions. The meeting with OUR AGENCY is December 5 and I'm very excited about this one. They have a good reputation and I'm anxious to see how they are in person. Anyway, those are my updates! We're still making paper hearts! Onward and upward!

Thought of the Day- Where are You?

Hi-

Today is November 17th. I was just thinking that today, somewhere, our child might be coming into the world. What a strange thought that this could be happening?! Wherever he/or she is today...I hope that they are happy for now, healthy forever and that somewhere in their tiny heart they will understand that they will one day have more love than they can stand...one day we will come for you.

P.S.- starting yesterday I decided to make a paper heart for every day along our journey. These will go in the baby's room when we put it together.

Our Journey Begins-Hello Baby (someday...soon?)

Hi,

We've changed direction in our lives so I've changed blogs. Welcome to the new blog of Mr. N. and Mama...on their journey to expand the family through international adoption. We are in the VERY early stages now deciding what to do with our international dreams of baby. We have been doing some research and I have made some new friends along the way. The current questions that we are trying to resolve are 1) what agency!? 2) what country!? We have been in discussion with three agencies now and we've had a webinar with one- we have a seminar with another on December 5 and two teleconferences with another next week (November 17 and 19). We have done quite a bit of research trying to make a decision and it is a difficult decision indeed. Most have the same things or similar things to offer and most people either love or hate their agencies (same agencies reversed for different people so not much help). I read groups and blogs and send emails and make phone calls trying to answer this question. The decision is in our hands. It all is a crap shoot really. We hope to have made a decision by December 5...so that we can send in an application on the 6th and get the ball rolling. Jump off the side of the pool into the deep end (holding hands with Mr. N. of course). Country? We are looking at both Russia and Kazakhstan. Both have pros and cons- which I will probably get into in a later blog.

In preparation for our journey we have started a major house cleaning- getting rid of useless JUNK and clearing the space for the little bed and/or crib that will eventually go there. And getting ready for a home study that will begin in a few months. Mr. N. cleaned out the file cabinet and pulled some of the documents that we will be needing, we cleaned out closets, we are working on the laundry/storage room so we can move things into it- making room for our little guy or girl.

This journey will be very exciting. It will be a lot of work. It will require a lot of determination. A lot of money. A lot of time. A lot of sacrifice and MOST OF ALL...A LOT OF LOVE.

But in the end...we will have the family that we want and it will all be worth it.